The Meaning of My Blogs Name.

We have all made sand castles growing up, or at least at one time wanted to. For me the sand castle represents change because at the end of the day it'll always be washed away for you to build it a new tomorrow.. for you to be able to change the structure... to change the design... to change the seriousness.  Its your choice to change, just as everything in life should be. 

We have also all dreamt in the time leading up to this moment. Whether it be as you lie in your bed at night fighting off evil with your magical powers or the time when you were five and you wanted to be an Astronaught. We have all dreamt. Some will continue. Some won't. But dreaming will always be apart of life.

All in all the name of my blog to me means changing dreams.  Because we all can do it. It just depends on your will.

I will never be affraid to change my dreams for me.

So Strange...

I genuiniely feel odd not having to have to do this and doing it by my own free will.. the sad part is I know no one will read this because they don't have too.. and I know I wont see a new blog post on my dashboard from any of you until Haskett starts her new class and she posts a new blog. But I guess thats just how our class worked.  So enough reminissing. Now about me.
I am now officially an enlisted member of the United States Air Force. I don't know when I'll be leaving so I am currently looking for a job, but you all know how that goes in Manteca.. there's no sign of any jobs anywhere. and I mean anywhere. I finally got my license.. let me tell you.. my picture makes me look like a chipmunk. Who ever said you will never get a good looking drivers License picture sure as hell was right. 
But other than that I am the same old me.. nothing new.  You know how some people talk about how much they change in the months immediately following graduation...yeah... not so much.  I still talk too much and laugh at my own jokes more than anyone else does. I still write a freakish amount every day.. I still read too much. but hey aren't these all qualities I always wanted to keep... I think yes.

I feel like...

Our CW classes can be thought of as reletionships. Last year was this amazing heart felt loving union that we thought would last a life time. Unfortunately it didnt but we were ok with that because all good things have to come to an end.

Now this year... Thats a whole different playing feild. Its An abusive, stubburn pig who takes advantage of what it has.. Us. The hearts, and the words. But we have made it this way. Not all of us no. But some of us.

And through this new relationship all we can think about is the old one and how great it was and how we anticipated this one to be the same but it took us by suprise and abused us just like any other class

Time

25 days till im gone. 25 days is all thats left of my overbearing high school life. It almost unreal? Is that weird?

Old pals

I can remember waiting every day for you to get home
Because you were in kindergarden
And i was too young to go to school

I can remember when you moved away
And i would begg my mom every weekend to
Just let me stay at your house one more time

I can remember your dads tuna sandwiches,
Your moms old micheal jackson records,
And watching tales from the cript every saturday night

But most of all i can remember losing you
To age, to distance, to different crowds.
You went left and i went right

I will remember today
Your eyes still big wih hope
like my six year old best friend

My teeth still crooked
But shown in a happy smile
And a friend ship that will last through anything

how exciting.

im so over high school. the stupidity of it all is really starting to get to me. i dont want to wake up in the morning to see all these people i really dont care for.  I dont want to eat a lunch that makes me want to puke. (why dont i go off campus for lunch you ask? because im poor and at school my lunch is freee, there is such a thing as free lunch mr.silva)  I dont want to sit through classes that i could ace by not even showing up.  i just dont want to do anything.  i know what im going to do with my life so it seems like these weeks are just dragging on and on. and its so exciting right? whoever said high school was some of the best years of your life appearantly never attended.

Current Situation

Packing is honestly one of the most frustrating things in the world. I hope that when i get older if i have children that i will be able to provide a consistant home for them and that they wont have to worry about moving tooo much.. Seeing as i am joining the military this is not exactly a likely senario.. But hey maybe i just wont have kids.
Anyways. Im officially moved out of my house and living at my aunts. Im not sure how i feel about this change as of yet but once i decide i will let you know.
And good news i have an appointment with a plastic surgen this up coming wednesday to talk about getting my ear holes closed! I know that sounds a little extravagant but when you get the opportunity to join the airforce with one set back. The one set back being something you regret. And someone agrees to pay for it for you.... You take it