The Story of Me

so ive decided to blogg every day.  even if its just a little bit.  i have a feeling it wont happen as often as i want it to but hey a girl can try right?
so todays blog is going to be about me because i know the majority of you dont really know me that well and some of you dont know me at all..
My name is Cari Catherine Carl.  Thats why you may hear people call me C3 or other things that have to do with the letter C and the number Three.  I was born on May 14, 1993 at 6:15 to Valeri Hook and David Carl who were married the December before I blasted my way into this world.  I have a little brother named David Jr., we call him DJ, but sometimes i call him buger. I have an older sister named Stephani McNair, we have different dads so were technically only half sisters but that never crosses my mind. She is my very best friend and practically raised me.  Last year on October 28 she gave birth to my beautiful nephew Jordan Andrew Gonzolez and he is my world.  Its funny how such a little guy who cant even talk cant brighten up my day in less than a second. 
I attended Linclon elementary school where i met my other best friend Dina Baker.  She threw up on me in the 1st grade but i still love her.  Alot of memories come to my mind when i think of lincoln but there are too many for just this one blog alone.  Although i will say Rest in Paridise Mr.Morgan.
Mr.Morgan was a man of many talents. and teaching was one of them... i can honestly say i would not be the person i am today without him.. he molded us lincoln students as people as well as students and i will be forever greatful to him for that.
I currently am a Senior at Manteca High School and have attended MHS since i began high school.. in my high school years i have gained friends and lost them.. I am very proud to say though i did meet my other best friend Nicole Coburn when we were freshman.  You may have heard that i hated her when i first met her and truth is i did. but that was because im a prejudger.  Or i can be at least. but half way through my freshman year i transfered into Mrs.Hasketts first period honors english class where Nicole and i became closer.  I guess i should say thank you Mrs.Haskett for that.
Well this is enough for today i think.. Adios

Thing i often do or say

• brush my teeth
• play with my hair.
• write (i write too much)
• wash my feet.
• "oh we dont talk about that"
• "i know right?"
• "uhhhh"
• listen to my ipod
• watch the same movie multiple times in one day
• dance
• sing out of key
• like people who put me in the friend zone (yes this happens to girls too)
• shop
• "im just sayin"
• "lets get down to busines...." (mulan fans know the rest of that)
• tell the same stories
• eat pizza every wednesday (dollar slice!!!)
• eat ice cream every tuesday (dollar scoop!)
• drive around with nicole
• farmers market with my sister.
• walk aimlessly
• dance in the rain.
• fall for jerks
• dont fall for the good guys.
• let things get to me...

im sure ill find mor to add to this list... so when i do ill start another :)

Im Torn

What would you do if you had the power to destroy a life of two made into one, in the palm of your hand?  What if you didnt see it as a power but rather a burden?
 I hate this. Having this much weight on my shoulders.  I dont want to keep it in.   I see you every day and i want to spill my beans.  Want to let you know the horrible things ive heard, for your familys sake.  For your brothers sake.  I may not know him.. but i know how much he means to you.  Him being hurt would cause you pain as well, i know it.  I care too much about you to see you in the least bit of pain, but i cant let you know that. ha.
i wish i could just say this stuff.  but i cant. not to those who need to hear it most. i dont have the courage for that...
but honestly... heres the deal.  ill change the names so you all wont have to deal with the burdens.  the characters will be completely real with minor changes made to them to make them unrecognizable.

this past sunday i hung out with one of my ex's from freshman year.. well call him Ted.
he told me a story about one of his ex's we'll call her Jessie.
Jessie is married to my good friend Steve's older brother Chris.
Chris is in irag.
Jessie misses him dearly.
thats the only explanation i can come up with from the events of mine and Teds conversation.

basically Ted told me that Jessie has been telling him that she doesnt wanna be married to Chris anymore. and that she has been acting crazy.. Ted knows Jessie really loves Chris, but he's starting to believe that she still loves him too.
like i said my only explanation for this is that her feelings coming back for Ted is a direct result of Chris being in irag and not being physically here for her to love.. when Chris is right down the street.  i honestly want this to all just be some misunderstanding.  i want to talk to her. but i dont want to confront her over facebook or any other online server... and im nervous. what if it is the truth.  how am i to keep that in...

Go Big Green.

so how bout them buffaloes aye?  the game this past friday was absolutely amazing and i will be remembering it for years to come.  i got really into the game this time as those of you may know.  trevor nicole and i made go fight win signs... and i danced... alot.  not to flatering i know. but hey ya gotta love it!  anyways im gonna tell you a little story from part of my night... a story im not to proud of but one that i hope you all will get a little chuckle out of..  so im sitting in the herd being the amazing person that i am when all of a sudden i notice this awkwardly adorable guy staring at me with an odd expression on his face which kindof made me mad so i looked at him and said "do you even go to this school?" to which he replied
"uhhh yeah"
and basically the conversation went on like this:
"well what grade are you in?"
"im a freshman..."
"ohhhhhh are you mrs.silvas little brother?"
"how did you know that?"
"oh im her best friend"
"im sorry..."
and well basically i felt so awkward for thinking a little kid was cute let alone mrs.silvas kid brother i wanted to die.. lol not really but basically... we had another conversation and it went like this...
me: "hey kid"
him: "uhhh i have a name"
"and what is it?"
"steven"
"can i call you steviepoo?"
"you can call me whatever you want as long as its not hey kid"
steven rubles offical nickname is now steviepoo to all of you that know him so you must call him that! lol anyways as the game went on i kept losing people to hold up the go sign (i dont know why but people just didnt want to hold the dang go) so eventually steviepoo decided to be the go and we got hecka into it. i think he was the best go holder we could have ever gotten to hold it because not only did he hold the go but he danced with me and cheered with me and stood for the whole last couple minutes of the game holding up the number one (one more baby one more!)  so basically hes legit. ohhh and i cant forget about chelsea 2E she was the win and im pretty sure she rocked it hard!  it was the best. keep up the good work boys! make this a season to remember forever

My thoughts go round and round

so life, i have decided, is a very confusing thing.  wait i take that back.  life isnt confusing it the people in it that make things more complicated than they need to be therefore making it confusing.  something that has been on my mind lately is friendly jestures.  can they be more than nothing or less than something?  or should we not think about them in any extreme way at all and leave them at the fact that they were nothing out of the ordinary at all?  its all too confusing for me.  ive realized i ask alot of questions.  and some are questions that not neccessarily everyone or anyone can give me the answer to.  like why can the counting crowes solve every single one of my problems?  or why do people insist on using the word depression all the time?  or whats going through a cheating mothers head while she's getting beat to a pulp by the man she threw her whole life away for?  most of my questions begin with why.. and i figured that things have to happen for there to be a why in the first place right? so where do all my questions go on at?  is there a secret world where all my why questions are being acted out therefore giving me the amunition for my why questions...? its crazy to think about the what if.  or maybe its just me thats crazy

Healthy and Happy.

happy saturday everyone, and great game last night buffs.  so im just sitting here watching what a girl wants and i decided it was time to blog..  im gonna tell you all about my weekend so far starting off with friday because friday is the weekend to me i dunno about you guys. well friday was sort of a good day in the end.  it started off with me falling and hitting my head in the theatre about ten minutes before the senior walk in rally.  i ended up chipping my front left big tooth and scraping my knee.  im so smart i know. then the senior walk in rally was sorta lame because really who forgets to call the picture guy? really?  after about an hour of moping around my house i had golf which wasnt tooo bad for once.  but i think it was only because we had a short practice.  afterwards i went to the football games.  good job jvbuffs and varsity buffs again. a bunch of friends and i met up at our friend mikeys house after. it was such a blast! we went swimming and listened to some beasty music..  and when i finally got to sleep i went to sleep happy so i think overall it was a very emotionally productive day.. but today. now thats a whole nother story. i havent done anything.  ive actually slept for most of it.  hopefully i get to do something fun before my saturday is completely wasted.