What would you do if you had the power to destroy a life of two made into one, in the palm of your hand? What if you didnt see it as a power but rather a burden?
I hate this. Having this much weight on my shoulders. I dont want to keep it in. I see you every day and i want to spill my beans. Want to let you know the horrible things ive heard, for your familys sake. For your brothers sake. I may not know him.. but i know how much he means to you. Him being hurt would cause you pain as well, i know it. I care too much about you to see you in the least bit of pain, but i cant let you know that. ha.
i wish i could just say this stuff. but i cant. not to those who need to hear it most. i dont have the courage for that...
but honestly... heres the deal. ill change the names so you all wont have to deal with the burdens. the characters will be completely real with minor changes made to them to make them unrecognizable.
this past sunday i hung out with one of my ex's from freshman year.. well call him Ted.
he told me a story about one of his ex's we'll call her Jessie.
Jessie is married to my good friend Steve's older brother Chris.
Chris is in irag.
Jessie misses him dearly.
thats the only explanation i can come up with from the events of mine and Teds conversation.
basically Ted told me that Jessie has been telling him that she doesnt wanna be married to Chris anymore. and that she has been acting crazy.. Ted knows Jessie really loves Chris, but he's starting to believe that she still loves him too.
like i said my only explanation for this is that her feelings coming back for Ted is a direct result of Chris being in irag and not being physically here for her to love.. when Chris is right down the street. i honestly want this to all just be some misunderstanding. i want to talk to her. but i dont want to confront her over facebook or any other online server... and im nervous. what if it is the truth. how am i to keep that in...
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